Soooo much has been happening with me its ridiculous... I remember I was watching Jumping the Broom and the couple was talking to the pastor and he said the couple, "I understand that you love each other, and maybe you are even meant to be with one another, But I should warn you that sometimes life... may test you. The lady said but reverend James we will past Jason was made for me we are soul-mates. The pastor then looked in her eyes and said, " oh that's so sweet but even a soul mate can really test you.. *pause* let me say this again. "Even a soul-mate may test you" This popped into my head after moving my things out of my husband and I house because he disrespected me after I lit into his butt after coming in the house at 5 am. Now, I know this seems very dramatic but lets just say this isn't the first time he has said something extremely bogus. I was fed up, so I got some of my things and went over to my mommy's house. I didn't want to go because I said vows... for better or worst and honey this was a really bad and I just wanted out! That was the fastest and easiest way to do it. I talked to my girl Jossi and she has been the biggest supporter when I'm going through a rough time in my marriage. I really really appreciate that... it's not too many people that are like hey now lets find out a way to resolve this so you two can get back on the ball. Thanks Jossi! But going back to the quote, the pastor really hit the nail on the head... even someone that is really close to you will test you. We are doing well right now and we have found out new ways of handling issues that we come across which is lovely but we are not done "fixing" this problem by a long shot. I'm just happy that I have a husband that is willing to work with me. I even thought about going to marriage counseling.... we will see how that goes.....
Moving on.... a couple of days ago I had gone over to Kendra house.... Jesse still wants to be cool with her husband so they decided to get together and drink and play video games. When I walked in the house I could tell the mood was very awkward. I mean this girl use to be my best friend along with Blair but I just dont trust her and I REALLY dislike Blair. If you are my friend you would know why I really dislike Blair and dont trust Kendra at all...Its a long story and honestly I dont feel like revisiting it for my viewers... if I have any LOL LOL. Well anywho back to the story... the guys talked while Kendra and I just sat there... I mean we talked every once in awhile but you know it just wasnt there. I honestly, I dont know if I miss her semi friendship. I have been so focused on me and my family and my true girls that I just blocked her out of my life. I told her husband that I would buy thier son a gift for the baby shower but would not be able to attend because I have to work...which is the truth. I prob could take off but she hasnt been a good enough friend to me to miss out on the money. Hey I need to take care of my family! LOL Anywho aftere leaving the house I told Jesse that I don't think our friendship can be fixed....and he said well I'm still gonna be friends with Steve ( Kendra's husband). Umm I don't know what to make of that. I mean I don't wanna be petty and say well you need to be on my side, but in a way, a tiny part of me really feels this way. I know men are different but man o man I really don't like the way things are looking. I won't press the issue... but I will be watching to see how things fall into place or fall out of place.... (twirling thumbs)
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